All love if this needle takes my life tonight,
staring at the stars sad smiles lost in hindsight.
Suffer through sorrow to overcome the pain,
wasted many years but it's never too late to change.
Can't think straight showered in stress,
injecting relief left my reality a mess.
Heavy hearts hurt more but the dope hurts less,
still stuck on a shot -one step short of success.
looking to a future as cold as a rifle barrel
can only blame myself for another downward spiral
heart hurts so much don't want to take another breath
tortured by tears just give me mercy,
just give me death
been to the deepest depths of an internal hell
darkness of depression that drugs design well
beauty in darkness loving an angel who fell
forsaken by love, this bullet bids my final farewell
its been 2 years and a day since i lost my father
went from 6 months sober to fuck it why do i bother
betrayal beats me up while my own mind holds me down
dealt a dirty hand when you can't trust a single soul around
just cause you give your heart away don't mean they give one back
has me thinking my biggest regret was not dying in Iraq
many years spent running from my pain and towards a sack
lost love and self control from some paranoiac panic attacks
fight,cry suffer but nothing will bring you or him back
end of story guess theres no return for this mack
homeless, heartbroken and hopeless my mistakes
survivals slim in a world with no people just 2 legged snakes
suicide stalks me like an enemy soldier.
all tactics failed can't find concealment or cover.
leave no man behind, why am I alone brother?
lost love leads to my last breath,
the war is finally
over.
let me go let me go tonight
all i do is wrong but i know you're right
heartbreak is heavy I wish you could save me
but my time is near just hold me baby
push people away so he wont hurt them
his love is toxic his pain is crippling
life of good intentions heres the outcome
without guilt or pain no emotions for him
shot up the enemy and drugs
neither of which brought me any love
shoulda kept shooting for changes
shot for success but I was a buck short of changes
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living in your head gets you down and disturbed
wish things went different still searching the right words
Can't justify violence never hit a girl
but you aborted true love before she seen the world
damaged people taught from trauma play wicked games
empty minus the sadness I shoot into my veins
you buried my heart with my baby in the ground
can't hold happiness I can't hold an ultrasound
charge my own country with treason
broke my heart and tied my noose without reason
guess my usage reached completion
trained too well to ever see life as a civilian
all I'm asking is one day of peace
a few minutes of comfort and safety
one night where my nightmares cease
and to feel like no one is trying to kill me
answered your war call without hesitation
come home and taught the pain of incarceration
their post war plan predisposed us to failure
soldiers suicide exposes government as a traitor
whole life ive been fucked up
thinking i could live without you
treating you like my worst enemy
clarity comes the only opposition is me
they said be sober and youll be happy
truth be told aint no happiness left for me
earned and killed for my respect
taxes created a killer, whatd you expect?
love me during war but after just neglect
traded my life for minimum wage check
with the idea i was sent to protect
my past paints a painful picture
taught by tragedy, agony is my architect
say a prayer for me say a prayer for me
actually dont waste your breathe on me
not like you ever made life fair for me
R.I.P to all the fucks I gave
just look at the monster you've made
no love for soldiers when wars over
self medicate, pains too real sober