The End

My country needed me, I was there.

I needed my country, no one is here.

My family needed me, I was there.

I needed my family, no one is here.

hurt, homeless and heart broken

no pride, no love, pain is not soft spoken

as far as hatred? I hold none

I won't hold a smile, happy days are all gone

my mother will have to carry my painful burden 

because some choices are non refundable

I'm on my path to see the reaper or maybe the warden

smile, wipe your tears away remember me as a symbol

because with or without my life.... isn't life wonderful

Sorry, I'm short on time so this is not even close to a good poem but I wanted to get some of that out while I still have the option available.

Thank you to everyone who always read my poetry. 

Perfect Paradox (Love Never Lost II)

Don't be a prisoner within your own thoughts,
Or material things, lose the hate, lose the gunshots
Life is judged off the love you chose to export
Heart without love is a hand without heaven's passport
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Hateful words never resolved the violence
But you attain wisdom through kind silence
Knowledge is power when most men stand adversity,
Power corrupts good men,heavy darkness held by human history
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If you learn to love then you know how to live,
Hatred lets them take but love continues to give
Live your life and spin the wheel of karma,
Peace of mind if you subtract the drama
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I've found peace on the borderline of gallows,
Far from perfect still walking within the shadows,
When you find yourself you've found your happiness,
Love isn't gone so refuse to conform to heartless
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Love is never lost just continue breathing,
Love never dies despite your body ageing
Love until it hurts because after the pain is lost,
Only love is left inside of a perfectly painted paradox

Infanticide

infant memories hold my only innocence
sexual infanticide molds my pain as limitless
men hold morals less valuable then self image
why be ashamed for another mans evilness
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empty messages to the untrained ear
yet closure to post traumatic peoples fear

Today Turned Tragic

Constant heart breaks when you're in love with an addict

Self centered feelings this time turned tragic

Family tradition, family formed bad habit

Her choice, my mistake, just close the casket

Whether she blowin dope or blowin for dope

She's 6 feet deep and I'm at the end of my rope

They taught me to fight for freedom with tragedy

So homicidal or suicidal just take this bullet from me

Me and her hope die together

A death so lonely ill miss her forever

She said shes beyond sick of me 

She was my life support shes what I need

If her life is hell shes just watching me burn

Painful sacrifice if I take her whole term

Shes hurt me beyond feelings but its worth the sentence

I'm at gates of hell missing her, hoping shes missing us