Missing a Monster but the Monster is Me

 no friends living in the age of agony

lose your mind then lose ability to be free

while haunted by demons don't forget to see

the nightmares and screams are reality to me

thought she knew the facts and understood crazy

thought she seen the shots sent through the palm trees

thought she comprehended war stories from overseas

should've stopped thinking, thinking she was in love with me

one minute of a moment of monstrous clarity 

did what was best for her and worst for me

obliterated her obligation and set her free

from loving a monster, a monster like me

Mind's Wondering Down The Same Path Again

 long and lonely road been traveling on

heartbroken, you left and they didn't notice you're gone

lesson taught life's rough, but hard lesson to learn

can't go back, now it's just another picture to burn

today's teardrops write tomorrows suicide letter

emotionally struggle and fight to live, however

try to convince yourself death has to be better

truth to paper you can't deliver a dead letter

every time they leave you're all that's left

sad sentiment but honestly the truth is ugly

ignorance is bliss but still down and depressed

wondering once again, will anyone ever love me?