Forget For

No opportunity, only cops knock at my door.

I don't drop names only bodies, my life is war.

Ignored and betrayed from peoples past pain that I currently pay for.

To earn to be homeless, if not broken, at minimal forgotten,

When war hit home, Don't forget who you cried out for.

Remember Me With The Fallen

Handwritten note that said I hurt her feelings
No apology I'll lose with or without the proceedings
All I know is pipes, pistols and pain
All that's remnant, my darkness is injecting into my vein

Close my eyes and try to remember what life is like
but pain impedes thoughts leaving me alone under moonlight
Used to be something like a hero but times changed
Now my value below zero, with feelings lonely and estranged

I almost remember what it's like to be loved
Even though my mind can't even fathom how to smile
Her laugh shows me heaven or something indicative of
But is quickly replaced by anxiety for my next trial

They say suicide is similar to selfish or cowardly
But pain is powerful and I don't get paid hourly
I know what its like to be a ghost, I live life forgotten
War converts life to trauma so bury me with my brothers
And remember me with the fallen

Lease a Life

Present nightmares paint me a dark reality.
Memories write my book drowning me within agony.
God hates me exposes a pathetic fallacy,
Still breathing with no love, so I see me as dead practically.

Suicide or sinister actions that killed me sadly,
Or maybe the moment I woke up an notice her unhappy.
I would kill anyone who stole her smile so I'll have to attack me.
Betrayed and remembered as a turncoat but time heals all tragedy.

I lost a life and a future since selling my soul to a syringe.
Stop while you're ahead but I have long since surpassed a binge.
Times running out so I'll wait for hell to answer for my sins.
Lease a life to a lost artist when one story ends another begins.

Alive and Ambitious

From Mama's nursery rhymes to selfish syringes,
Failure is failure even if winning was within inches.
Talent turns talk without success before life finishes,
Weakened but not beaten, still breathing, alive and ambitious.