End of War

They say a soldier served his country well

Given medals and accolades as self pride fell 

Cut the fat to bare bones Infantry's job, KILL!

History haunt's from nightmares to emotions we feel

The world is so fake reality does not look real

resentment builds up while everyone "knows how we feel"

Did you trade your future for failure, books for boots?

So understand our valor is not for you to steal

lose sensitivity or don't survive in the sandbox

no time for tears when rounds hit the truck like rocks  

We were ready to die for you would you die for us?

War trauma recognized here state side with no plus

See war til we die as you laugh at our craziness

suicide has never seemed so serene or unjust

escape outside our minds these monsters are dangerous

victory is found from those that learn to adjust

Adapt and overcome, if you can hold on longer

put your pistol down, or back into your holster

fold the flag for his family, tell them the war is over

or at least finally over for this 51ck 50ldier 

"Only the dead have seen the end of war"

Daddys Dysfunctional

Paisley baby, daddy's a little dysfunctional,
but I love you and your mommy unconditional.
Bloody hands from my past protects me from perfect.
Moved mountains, swam oceans, it was all more than worth it.
From a soldier sadly shooting toward suicide,
to a madman motivated never leaving mom's side.
Too many cold nights we held each other and cried,
so I promised your mommy a place before I died.
Hell and high water daddy always kept his word,
at least to your mother or I'd do the best I could.
Unfortunately daddy wasn't always good.
Daddy's heart was right but his actions misunderstood.
I know it seems simple baby but people stick to what they know.
Daddy stuck to his guns but my guns were too slow.
Grandma and grandpa ain't bad just the only example that I had,
See Paisley baby drugs are bad for everyone, even mom and dad.
I think about you nightly, I know your mom does too,
Mommy makes me proud and I know you're proud too.
Daddy's been feeling down for a minute cause of the life he fell into.
But you see Paisley I told Mommy I'd be lost if I lost you.
But I need help because I can't handle losing mommy,
Fuck------  :'(
Daddy still can't handle losing you ...

Childish Concepts

last night's experiment forms a future bad habit
fault turns flaw until failure is automatic
disown and distance yourself  ignoring the problem
too busy with work to play parent or guide them


no longer claim a child all you see is an addict
you just don't understand how bad these kids have it
'til times up and it turns out these times are tragic
started as a proud parent now plagued with regret


picture perfect people but forgot the treatment plan
epidemic turns traumatic, still don't understand?
less drugs more parents, what concept don't you get?
look in the casket, another addict or your kid?