Suicidal Smile

Never want to wake up like a good citizen.

Peacefully pass from an overdose of insulin.

Life and love teach heartbroken, never learn again.

Show a suicidal smile: “I’m okay,” I’ll pretend.

Drown in pills to level my emotions

Mind lost after 11 months of explosions

Missed miracles messed up on medications

Each minute alive exceeds my expectations

Look down at me and judge me how you will

You can’t last a minute feeling how I feel

Emotions whirlwind inside a traumatic brain

Why couldn’t  we die for freedom? Why couldn’t I die the same?

J.ustify E.very S.uicidal S.ymbol I.n C.ase A.lone

Pick your pain, living with all these regrets

Should have loved me more and loved you less

Say a prayer for me before my heart forgets

My life sentence of post traumatic stress

Faith in you forced me to feel forgotten

Called me a coward we got that in common 

Commissioned my crazy proceed with caution

Fail to forget I could've buried you in Parsons

Paint my problems onto paper pretend their poems

You slept with a stranger in our fucking home

Do you have a conscious?  do you know right from wrong?

Painful life lessons, you didn't even notice I'm gone

Left Them With Lies

 Tell all my friends how much I love them.

left them with lies, so they miss my storm

Forgot who I am and where I came from.

Made me a monster, worthless and war-torn.

Tortured souls screaming inside my head,

That's why I can't sleep alone in my own bed.

Never learned love pushed my pain instead.

tears trickle thinking of all the things she said.

Mans greatest fear, becomes a failed family.

love looks like blood if she's not laying with me

Bullet paints my pain written in blood red..

Suicide speaks silence with the words I never said..