The Pain of Someday

Born into a world that gave me less then a good biography
So universally hated even I'm trying to off me
Gave so much for people haven't even taken care of myself
But I did max out my life insurance so my mama finds wealth

Been to hell but I carry on with no pride or achievement
Constantly strive for better cause dreams die within content
The more I want to give up the more I am forced to continue
No fear of my own death it's my mothers tears that are the issue

We can't change yesterday but we can always try for tomorrow
Reach for the sky even if failure is easier to follow
Negativity will subside but my words will become real
Bodies may die but pain is something we all must feel

Tragic Tradition

My moms friend set about to end my life I was only 13
There was far too many nuts amongst only 29 palm trees
Young life, drug house, addiction proved a lethal disease
13 years old, no tears wasn't gunna let no man take life from me

Despite all the bull shit I've tried to live optimistically
My girl thinks I'm deaf, blind and dumb, the truth hurts me sadly
Story of my life no ball and chain but heavy on tragedy
Realize reality, even a blind man could see her infidelity

Lost all my friends to war and drugs, life offers no guarantees
Now I'm knocking on heavens door while I'm locked out with no keys
Addiction ends life, took my whole family and it's about to take me
No direction, only tradition, so hang me from my family tree