Life Impaired

The path to hell is paved with good intentions, truth turns fallacious causing wrong dimensions
now i cant fit myself into life's plan of existence, living persists only as drugs satisfy subsistence
I see through eyes of an aspirant hero who unintentionally became the villain
result of past i was coerced to bury, when society decided not to listen
life has impaired my self worth, it is me I am trying to outrun,
life has impaired us since birth, what is your present outcome?
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shown too many adulterous relationships, have we learned to produce otherwise?
An execrable living without love to reminisce, I know it's not what they advertise
the outside world is too chilling, so much evil to handle alone
higher then drugs or any building,to love that girl is the feeling of home
true love makes a monster strive to fare right, he never sleeps unless he knows she is protected at night
trust the words of monster impulsed to be forthright, happiness and sleep become unfeasible until she and I reunite
the view of love in which my life has impaired, to war and back but its love wherefore I'm scared
there is always that someone in which we have all cared, this is my view on love how has yours compared?
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foreseeing peace but we are unable to conquer obscure silence, myopic  prophecies good men turn bad as we resort to violence
lose prestige or suppress humanly fundamental moral obligations, compelled cooperation no winner privileged within these situations
lives taken with the thought of fighting for your freedom, essential for survival still choices we proceed to condemn,
no equivalent situation inside of our fictitious future that has the possibility to carry the weight of our inquietude
we were all different but a perfect mixture for consensus of our life at home, we'd inevitably live in solitude
alone but not missing only we comprehend the horrors that haunt us, return home for a few accolades and plenty post traumatic stress
united as brothers at arms for the brief moment during the warfare, soon forgotten plus homeless with only our burdens and loyalty to bare
outsiders are unable to obtain insight from our present reflections of a horrific past
slow to reveal emotions and perceptibly uptight, but it is for you America we stand fast
an impaired image of the honor that is visible, my perception of military and unselfish acts that  you can not constitute as vain,
these are my reasons never made invisible, do you think of us with all our sacrifices or ignore sorrowful cry's of those who remain?
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society's deficiency of compassion incontestable by our social instinct to devour one another, an idea the social media unintentionally makes tangible,
efficiency to obtain integrity is unachievable unless forgiveness is made ready to recover, despondent love with met criteria turns empathy impractical
way too fast to swap sides in an attempt to save face but there's two accounts of every report,
contempt alters understanding if truth is misplaced erase empathy or to pain you will likely resort
majority obtain egoistical preservation convert actions or conduce to the series,depreciate life until self-seeking concepts become subsided
minority group of human civilization have the greater good within their theories, a highly unattainable goal while existing narrow minded
time has come to love others and assist in achieving success, solutions found that love uncovers releases all of mankind from distress
My view on society impaired through life not noted easy to digest, my treatment of others and the inverse can never be perceived as best
peaceful variety in my road full of strife slowly has progressed, social impacts affect everyone how do you intend to contest?
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this is my life and the way it has thus impaired my vision, struck by pain due to the effect I've never made the right decision
I handle regret with every breathe for the rest of my years, my emotions I've tried to neglect but only to hide my tears
no achievement found within, self destruction plagues this man, even in death no success since the day my creation began
my father was far from perfect my mother rivaled the same, responsibility within me this life is my failure to claim
dispatching saints while destroying angels inevitably running the streets disorderly with the devil
from a girl I have tasted innocence competitively losing her while realizing belated that she was something special
never take back my time in Iraq but i would do things differently, hadji needed to shoot me first permitting my death with dignity
chain reaction of good fortune by removing my toxicity, suicidal self destruction destroys us both don't stand too close to me
killed myself trying to help others equalized if you take care of my mother, life remains absentee unless you release her from missing me
my view of my past turned regret that life did also impair, i take full responsibility kept my understanding that life isn't fair,
not everyone has regrets for some of us do not care, but to your answer or explanation i am ready to adhere
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life means nothing can't object your directions, if hearts still beating not too late to make corrections
my life's picture at my time of death will remain pointless, unless i refuse to expire deaf, blind and voiceless
until me and my time on earth has perished I'm devoted to making amends, few events of past still cherished good deeds eroded while absent of friends
words myself left to devote into a society which conceives there is nothing left to learn,
love learned during acts of impropriety invalid sermon withdraw entitlement love is something we must earn
the world we know preaches mendacious morals in addition to misleading facts, teach war yet proceed to punishment for quarrels while nationalism distracts
life is a concept for which no man can be excluded, life turns lie without integrity hopefully you are better alluded
ego is the substructure for all actions to be considered evil,empathetic actions become withered unless all people become equal
see wrong still remain voiceless apathetic demons evolved fiends, witnessed hell accept my guidance love by any means
dissipated days do not draw to the end if there is no moral code for an opposition to defend
we must prevent value of life from decreasing transform all this killing into kindness
love and empathy require much increasing reformed humans subsequently shine like diamonds
words already spoken to impair your choices rise above the hate discontinue all the violence
no time for peace if always at war do not remain inaudible speak over the silence