"You can not change yesterday you must live with that sorrow, but you can change yourself to ensure a better tomorrow "
Dedicated to everyone who has been negatively affected from my past actions since returning from Iraq, I am truly sorry.
I am still trying to find out what was worse for them
Watching me drown or knowing they couldn't save me
I woke up in a mental hospital horrified for they weren't dreams,
Drugs faded guilt became reality but i can still hear her screams
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I looked toward the future but only saw images from war past
Winning impossible while moving in reverse from first to last
My soul turned empty from violence i had forced you to take,
Angel turned tragedy from the evil every night you had to face
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I wore a coat but it never took away my depressed winter
I tried to change the page anything to get to a new chapter
Full of astronomical anger drinking playing dangerous games,
While the only time you were safe was inside of picture frames
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I was so crazy i made you feel my P.T.S.D,
Showed you the devil I'd locked inside of me
I needed you like a bullet needs gunpowder
It took a monster like me to hurt a flower
