search for love altered to gasping for air since you took my breath
still searching for something, repetitive regression reaches unrest
days spent pointing in the right direction and giving me a reason to breathe
love is blind and truth sets us free, love eerie when you're in it without me
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looking for years, yet still so far away from what i need to find
sanity is just a theory, when you are already out of your mind
survival in violence so combat inevitably becomes our only freedom
world war me or lonely in reality, concentration inside incarceration
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murdered better men then I have met so any gamble on life consider a lost bet
Iraq was wrong answer it made me a monster, Infantry the American gangster
no divorce from nightmares I'm depressed and distraught, pain alone is all i got
received hate I fought to be free defended this country yet no love left for me
* * *
standing at the mouth of hell's gate without you present and minus my smile
attending the trial of my future fate, all that is left, war guilt and criminal file
angels were around or I would've died in the components of that I.E.D attack
live life or walk dead, search through the sky but I can't bring you or him back,
* *
lost her and logic neither will miss me, overdose on pain add more to my suicidal history
miserable morals met, so I paint painful portraits onto paper and portray them as poetry
drugs destroy silence yet don't determine my past as dirty,addiction creates controversy
wonder if it's sanity or you I'm missing, when I realize only these shadow creatures listen
*
summer sunny days remind me of all the good things lost in time,
rainy memories of cold dark nights I still called you mine
my heart shatters like it's made of glass,
but my happiness is like you
only in the past
